The CD and the Bestie
While ruminating over the idea of what to write about this week that would be possibly a less discussed aspect of the CD lifestyle, it occurred to me that this subject is one which would reveal a sharp divide in the experiences of members of this community. Not a point of dispute, to be clear, but one where the experiences of some would be completely different than those of others.
The subject I speak of is whether or not you have, or had, a supportive or encouraging genetic female in your life who in some way aided your journey as a crossdresser. In my own personal experience, the very limited extent to which a GG ever encouraged me were limited, inadvertent, and not based on an awareness of my gender issues. The most thrilling of these occurred when I was 18. At the time I was dating a girl who was, to put it kindly, a bit nutty. She was, however, very sexual and that fact covered a multitude of sins for me at the time, for reasons which are not necessary for me to discuss here. After we’d been dating for some months, there was an occasion where she and I were home alone at her parents house and had locked the doors in order to do what you might expect a teen couple do to with that opportunity, when we were surprised to be interrupted by her 12 year old brother pounding on the door.
After several moments of scrambling to appear innocent of wrongdoing, she let him in and moments later, sitting at the table in the kitchen, the kid asks “So, what were you guys doing with the door locked?” and my ditzy girlfriend, thinking up a “brilliant” cover story told him that I was trying on some of her clothes for fun! This girl had no idea then, or for decades to come, that I had gender issues – it was a complete shot in the dark. But I had to work hard to fake an outraged denial. The bottom line though, is that I never had the courage to reveal my feelings to any other person, male or female, until the last few years and everything that’s “girlish” about me I acquired on my own (how to do make-up and so forth).
For others, there was a girlfriend, a wife, a sister, a schoolmate, a cousin, or whomever that they either took into their confidence, or who initiated the idea of doing a “make-over” for fun completely out of left field. It’s easy to find hundreds of videos on youtube of some high school persuading some reluctant guy to let them doll him up and I have to think that when that happens to a guy who has cross-gender interests, he must feel like he’s won the lottery.
So, what’s been your experience? Did you have some female or group of females “force” you to try a walk on the feminine side? Did you have a girlfriend or wife you took into your confidence and found her encouraging? Did you participate in some fetish activities like D/s that led to so-called “force feminization”? Or did you simply keep your mouth shut and your head down and walk the road alone or in the company of fellow CDs?